i love u this much why why

February 29, 2008


To: R ~ From: m

Dear R.,

Let me start by saying that I thank God every night since I found you. You came into my life when everything seemed so dark but you provided the light to find my way. I’ve never been so certain of anything in my life like I am of us. You have totally changed my outlook in life and I thank you for that. I never thought that someone could love me like you do, but guess what? I love you that much too. I feel as if I’m walking over clouds just thinking about you. You make my life complete. I know you’ve said we could do foolish things while in love, but you know what? With you I wouldn’t mind being a fool for the rest of my life. I love you so much and I know you love me too. I know that others looking into our relationship might think that we’re saying too many foolish things too soon but they just don’t know how we feel about each other. There’s nothing foolish about the things I’ve told you, I meant every word I said. I love you and for you and D. I would do anything, I love you both so much. Today I promise you that I would do anything in my power to make you a great person, outstanding father and loving husband. I LOVE YOU!!

With love M,

November 2, 2007


You made death cry when you looked me in the eyes
so why are u looking at me?
when i see you, i think of a better life
so just stay with me tonight.

my soul cought fire, and u turned me into a cryer,
and nothing seems too real,
when all you need is desire.
so just stay with me tonight.

so why are u killing me
Just killing me with knives
so save yourself,
and take yourself away,
save u from the pain,
the hurt, the worst thing i can say
to make things better off
can you hear the rain?

u make my ears bleed, when u say u love me,
i think my heart jumped out of my chest.
if you were in danger i’d stay and fight,
but your not with me tonight.



November 2, 2007


Dear Rif*,

I can be myself when I am with you. Your idea of romance is dim lights, soft music, and just the two of us. Because you make me feel like I have never felt before. I can tell you anything, and you won’t be shocked. Your undying faith is what keeps the flame of our love alive. You and me together, we can make magic. We’re a perfect match. Thinking of you, fills me with a wonderful feeling. Your love gives me the feeling, that the best is still ahead. You never give up on me, and that’s what keeps me going. You are simply irresistible. I love you because you bring the best out of me. Your terrific sense of humor. Everytime I look at you, my heart misses a beat. You’re the one who holds the key to my heart. You always say what I need to hear. You have taught me the true meaning of love. Love is, what you mean to me – and you mean everything. You are my theme for a dream. I have had the time of my life and I owe it all to you. And, of course, your intelligence, ’cause you were smart enough to fall in love with me. ;-)

Love Always,

tc umwaaah

love letter

November 2, 2007


Dear lobyy,

I love you; there it’s simple but so true. I miss you so much and I know what’s happened but I don’t know why I did it. I don’t want to break up with you; I love you more than anything. You are my world, my life, my reason to live. The 200 miles will not destroy us, we both know we are strong enough to make it through. It was you who pulled me through leaving. You were there, you held me close, I was crying, you said it would be fine and I believe you, it will be! I love you, RIFAA, and always will. I can’t wait to see you again!

Love always,M

listen me plzzz

November 2, 2007


Listen R***,

 this is no small thing: if u end this thing, I die. Please try to think, it isnt over yet, anyways.
Was there a flash of a swift wing stroking, glistening to metal in that one clear day?
Strain, for I am straining so, for it is everything. Wait! as i know u,u never lies, And so ou said ull be with me, and you
will never hurt me, you have just now dropped something, you lean over …What is it? What
is it? I am fading, I am. These words, I swear it, are the only thing. Did
you glimpse from the corner of even one fast eye in the moonlight, goddamn
it, you must feel this pain.If not ull never understand how i feels. In the mist, the faintest arch of a
silvery-pastel rainbow, as cool as the moonlight, near a cloud, full of tears, didn’t you
see it? Can’t you hear what I’m crying, these tears i cant bare for….
wont u call me,wont u fullfill ur promise,
im just begging u only onething from this whole world,and its to give me happiness, something which others cant give, u only can give that…and i dont feel the same for others when i think of them….i tried to letgo, but i failed….

wont u takeaway me from this hellhole life of mine….wont u takeaway these tears from me,

i just want u to be with me, i guess its not something which u cant do …… i guess

Thank God I Found You

Hello world!

November 2, 2007

….why i cant be the one i used to be……

why why u used me…koba aharen ge kushaky thi hen ahararen na thi hadanyyy..aharen na igey haa echaky ves ahren inthiaa yah loabi vaakan.. adhi vaane kan…


what if ma love for u never ends